I am so tired lately. Yesterday I felt eli push off the tips of my ribs. It felt really weird. He has been kicking a lot lately to. This is what I imagine what those who were implanted with an alien, in the movie alien, felt like. Having a creature, or in my case a little boy, growing inside you. I'm sitting in the Dr. Office waiting to have my cervics measured one last time. I hope all goes well. Did I mention I am super tired...

I'm back!

Awesome! I found a Droid app. That let's me blog. Finally. Why didn't I think about this before? Well time to catch up...
A few weeks ago, I went in for a baby checkup and my midwife told me that when they did a measurement of my cervics, it seemed shorter than it should be at my time of pregnancy. This caused concern, as it could make me go into pre-term labor and most likely lose the baby. She set up an appointment for me to go to st. Vincent's in beaverton, to see a Dr. Who specialized in pre-term births. So I set up an emergency appointment, went in about a week later, and they re-measured my cervics. The out come was it was shorter than it should be, by about a centimeter, but it hadn't gotten shorter. Worse case scenario, if my cervic was shortening, I would have to be put on bed rest. So the Dr. Put me on a program where they would call me every Tuesday to ask me about my symptoms and if I had any concerns or questions. And I was to come back in, in two weeks to get re-measured. There were a few days where I had semi-painful contractions, but nothing rhythmic or four within an hour. I went back in this last Wednesday and got re-measured and thankfully it has stayed the same. The Dr. Was happy, and so was I. He still is having me come in for another measurement in two more weeks, so God willing it will still stay the same.

So I havn't had any internet in so long, so much has happened. I got married to Taylor. Marriage has been fun. We have learned alot about eachother and have settled into married life nicely. And now we are expecting a cute little baby. Taylor and i went to the hospital yesterday to find out what we are having. we were in the room getting measurements through the ultrasound for a good hour and a half. We got to see the heart, the hands and feet, the face, the bladder and kidneys. and then we got to ind out that it's going to be a little Eli (if we stick with that name :) yay, we were very excited to hear that, now we will have a big boy to take care of his little brothers and sisters. after we found out, taylor's mom and my mom with crystal came in to see the baby. That was really fun, and they enjoyed it. I have to go to work now so i will be on whenever i can!

So my parents had a great time at the wedding retreat. They came back inspired and excited, and it was really encouraging to see. Today me joy, alissa and adi all went to Micheals and shopped for invitation stuff. It was really fun. I was a little overwhelmed because i really didn't know what I was looking for, but in the end I got some good things to start with. Then i met up with Taylor and we went and looked at apartments for him to move into. One was an apartment complex, it was really nice. Nice kitchen and the rooms were a decent size. It had it's own balcony and little storage unit. I really liked it. oh, and it also had it's own laundry, wich was awesome. :) The other place was alright. It was a little over our budget, so we will see.
So lately i have been feeling depressed and worn out. I am so overwhelmed with the wedding planning. I don't even know where to start, and there is so much. It just makes me feel like pulling out my hair or punching a wall. I am glad, though, that i took at least a small step towards it by getting stuff for invites, but it seems so meenial. I just have to keep telling myself that it will turn out well in the end. I just feel like there will be alot of people who will be judging my decisions, so i am not looking forward to that. aaaah well. I am off to nurse my pounding headache...

so tomorrow my parents are going on a marriage retreat for 3 days (without crystal). i am so proud of them. i was so discouraged on my last post, but God has been faithful to my prayers and has taught me to trust Him. i knew that trusting God was something i needed to work on, and i prayed about it. and lo and behold, just like when i prayed for patience when i was 15, He answered in so many different ways my head is spinning. i want to thank joy. she said something to me, when i first found out my parents were struggling that sticks in my mind. she said "be glad your parents love eachother enough to go to counseling." i didn't know how to feel about that or not, i just wanted their marriage to be instantly better. but i should've known it would take time, silly me. i'm glad they were willing to stick it out. also, i want to thank God who put taylor in my life. without taylor, it would have been so much harder to go through this. he was there to comfort me, and to talk through it with me, and since he had already experienced worse than what i had to go through, he could relate. God is always faithful. i now kindof understand the verse that says God will only give you what you can handle.
the newest things on my "stress list" is my car. about 2 days ago i was driving back home from taylors and i shifted up to 1st and my car wouldn't accelerate and it started to shake really bad. so i pulled over by the fire-staion in estacada and (having left my phone AT taylors) i walked back to taylors so he could give me a ride home. the next day i had my car towed to a muffler store. all day yesterday and today i worried and worried about my car. will i have to shovel out a bunch of money to fix it? will i have to get a new car? if i fix it, how long will it take? will i be able to get to work, or will i have to ride my bike or walk? i am just so worried about it. yesterday i almost threw up i worried so much! Gah! i hate it when i do that. i need to again, learn to rely on God and His strength in thisn area of my life, but it is hard.