Saturday, June 24, 2006




Today was really, really good. But full of some emotional ups and downs...which i won't go into further detail. my day started out Disgusting. i realized i was being completely "un-humble" and wasn't listening to my mom ALL week. she kept telling me to get ahold of kim dodrill, about the VBS signs, and i kept putting it off. she also kept telling me to get ahold of Jake Cox, because he was going to make an easle to hold the VBS signs, and i needed to tell him how to do ir. i put that off to, thinking..."oh, jakes smart. if i don't call him he'll figure something out. Well....no. that's not how life swings your way. come to find out, kim had wanted me to put the signs up at the beginning of last week, and jake never made an easle...because he didn't know what i wanted. so it all smacked me in the face this morning, when i finally decided to call kim. i felt like a jerk and i had completely let down kim. she blamed herself for miscommunication and her busyness...but i know that it wasn't her fault. i'm just dumb. and God forced down a hard lesson down my throat. "listen to your mother." "learn humility..." "always be humble". sorry kim.

well...after that blow to the face, God helped me up like a good and loving father. He let me realize that i have my own easle...and that kim wasn't going to fire me. so...i still feel like a jerk, greatly chastined, and not quite ready for crafts. i've prepared some crafts that are simple in style, but i hope to build that up with alot of talking and scripture. these kids, by the time i'm done with them, will hopefully be grounded in Gods truth. WELL that was my goal anyways.

ANYways. after all that, i ended up going with the yammamoto's to this Tibetan thing at oaks park. It was pretty nice. i'm glad i got to see joy and jason, and seeing Mike there was really awesome. i felt like running up to every tibetan ther and yelling "Tashi-de-lek!" while giving the respectable fold of the hands, and bow of the head.
it was exciting. God's awesome. i had some..."ok" tibetan food. the momos were a little to chewy and the rice was really watery. i feel sick already. anyways. afterwards, i got to hang out some more with the Yammamoto's. Kristen always surprises me with her deep love for God. she said alot of fascinating things. I felt like God was using her to open my eyes, just a little bit wider. I find that she is an awesome role model for us younger women...(me and joy...???). anyways. it was nice.

THEN! (whew! mouthfull!)

after that...i got to go to Rob Gaskills surprise birthday party. Got to see some people...it was very tiring. got home, and then left AGAIN! my grandma and grandpa were in town. and wanted to see us. so we went over to there hotel. i got to drive my grandpa to Denny's, without a parent! it was farely exciting. we had some good talks. he told me my uncle Jim (who's the most awesome uncle in the world. he had LONG curly red hair!!!) is in college right now. i already knew he was studying to be a Biblical Archeologist...but my grandpa also told me that he's now a professor there. and they're paying for his tuition. My uncles awesome. his testimony is really awesome! he never beleived in God until like 5 years ago, in his forties...something just clicked. he used to be this huge computer programmer, but when Christ found him, he quit his job, and went to school to study to be a Biblical Archeologist! how awesome is that. not much later, he and his wife had there first kid. a girl...and now they have two! another girl! it's so awesome! :)

anyways. i was excited. got to hang out with my grandparents for a while, then came back home. where i am now, sitting here and typing up a storm. hope i didn't tire you out.

God is awesome.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

well, today i had a really good time in the word. i finished the book of Hebrews! i read chapeters 10 and 11! and they were pretty awesome chapters. i'll even put them on this post so you can read them for yourselves!

Hebrews 11

1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2 This is what the ancients were commended for. 3 By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.
4 By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead. 5 By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. 7 By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith. 8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9 By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10 For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God. 11 By faith Abraham, even though he was past age--and Sarah herself was barren--was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12 And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore. 13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14 People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15 If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 Instead, they were longing for a better country--a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them. 17 By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18 even though God had said to him, "It is through Isaac that your offspring will be reckoned." 19 Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death. 20 By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future. 21 By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph's sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff. 22 By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions about his bones. 23 By faith Moses' parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king's edict. 24 By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. 25 He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. 26 He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28 By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel. 29 By faith the people passed through the Red Sea as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned. 30 By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the people had marched around them for seven days. 31 By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.
32 And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35 Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36 Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37 They were stoned; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated-- 38 the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground. 39 These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40 God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

Hebrews 12


1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, 6 because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son." 7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? 8 If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. 9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! 10 Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. 12 Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 13 "Make level paths for your feet," so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed. 14 Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. 15 See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. 16 See that no one is sexually immoral, or is godless like Esau, who for a single meal sold his inheritance rights as the oldest son. 17 Afterward, as you know, when he wanted to inherit this blessing, he was rejected. He could bring about no change of mind, though he sought the blessing with tears.
18 You have not come to a mountain that can be touched and that is burning with fire; to darkness, gloom and storm; 19 to a trumpet blast or to such a voice speaking words that those who heard it begged that no further word be spoken to them, 20 because they could not bear what was commanded: "If even an animal touches the mountain, it must be stoned." 21 The sight was so terrifying that Moses said, "I am trembling with fear." 22 But you have come to Mount Zion, to the heavenly Jerusalem, the city of the living God. You have come to thousands upon thousands of angels in joyful assembly, 23 to the church of the firstborn, whose names are written in heaven. You have come to God, the judge of all men, to the spirits of righteous men made perfect, 24 to Jesus the mediator of a new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel. 25 See to it that you do not refuse him who speaks. If they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, how much less will we, if we turn away from him who warns us from heaven? 26 At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, "Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens." 27 The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken--that is, created things--so that what cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, 29 for our "God is a consuming fire."

ok i lied. it was the two chapters before the last that really intrigued me! God's awesome. He showed me so many things in these two chapters. but i also have a few questions. in verses 21 and 22 of chapter 11, what does that have to do with faith? what did Josephs "oredering of his bones" and Jacob "worshiping and blessing his sons" have to do with faith (if you haven't read the first chapter, don't just read those two verses to figure out what i'm talking about. you have to read it as a whole...). i'm pretty sure i had way more questions. but those really stuck out to me. i also hope you read both of the chapters. even if you feel like not reading them because it'll be boring or your to exauhsted and you have the excuse "i've already read the Bible today"...,Tough! read the two chapters. i'm fairly sure, if you listen hard enough, that God can show you something really awesome in them. :)

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

let's see. what to talk about. let's talk about God...again!

i think i talk about God in the same repetitive fashion. let's spice it up a bit.

Your walking on a beach. The waves are intense. Splashing upon the shore, causeing havoc, but receeding and crashing to the shore once again. It's a repetition that happens every second of everyday, whether your present or not. Your in a forest. The wind blows and crashes through the trees, grabbing branches and foliage. Whipping them about with intense force. Causing creaking and groaning. The air fresh and crispe. Filled with growthe and newness of life. Every second of everyday, the Breath of God brings new life into the world. A baby rabbit in a burrow. A baby bird in a nest. A newborn baby in a hospital. Everyday, in your life God breathes something new in you. A new day brings a new outlook and a fresh start.

well, i'm not sure where i was going with that.
sorry...

July is coming up. along with my 20!!! BIRTHDAY!!! :)

YESSS!!!

anyhow. along with my birthday and camp, come a job. and a new life. i guess. i have actually been pretty terrified of moving out. it's terrifying. but Brents last sermon really hit my hard. DUH! carina!!! God will walk you through all the tough stuff. i really liked what he said..."if God gave me wings, i'd fly" ."If God bid me fly, I 'd trust Him for the wings." that was pretty awesome. and...yah.

bedtime for me. it's ALMOST 11!!!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

well, i'm eating a huge bowl of oatmeal! MMMM....
i have a weird headache. but it seems to be disipitating. (?)
i will now opene up my Bible and read

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(and sadly i don't have e-sword anymore...so it's manula typing out verses!)

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ok. here's a thought. alot of people beleive that when Christ returns, we will all be taken up into heaven and live happily ever after...but what if that's not God's plan. what if His plan is to have a global "persecuted church". not just in those third world countries like india and china. but in america. which means we all would be physically (NOT emotionally or verbally) persecuted. are we ready for that? are we ready to feel physical pain for Christ?! i we ready to have a fingernails wripped off, our hair sliced of our head, teeth punched and pulled out, starvation...??? the list of torture gets worse and more painfull. are we prepared for what might possibly lie ahead of us?

Hebrews 10:32
Remember those early days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. you sympathized with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew yourselves had better and lasting possessions. so do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. you need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised.

that was the verse that inspired that thought. what do you think?

Monday, June 19, 2006

Alot of times i enjoy reading music. It fascinates me. Lyrics, that at one point in someones life, had brought them so close to God, they could feel Him. They could sense Him. They were inspired by His power and Greatness...so much so that they wrote there heart out on a piece of paper. That piece of paper was then published so the whole world could get a little glimpse of that passion that that person once had. God is so real in my life, He controls every part of it. I wish He'd given me the talent of writing music. Well, i suppose art is just a great as music. Throughout history, so many people have sat down at there easil, and experienced the same deepness of life that God puts in our hearts. There passion was put forth on Canvas. A new masterpiece was created through love and devotion, and that work of art was displayed for all to see. Then there are the times when that artist hides his work. It was something not meant for Human eyes to see. Just something special, between him and God. I realize most of this rambling makes no sense. I realize you probably are thinking that i'm strange and corrupt. But bear with me on my train of Thought. God has given each of us a passion to use for His glory. A passion, that for some moments in life, could be used to educate the world of your passion for Him. Other times, it could be a deeper gift, created just for Him. Just for His joy. Like when your sitting in a cold bus, surrounded by people you'd rather not begin conversations with. And a song springs up in your mind. You sing it in your heart just Fot God and you. No one else. These deeper times with God build and shape your relationship with Him. You could stand back and say "God, is Huge. He wouldn't care to listen or see..." or "God is full of jealousy and spite. He has no time for a pitiful creature...". There are many excuses! But the fact is, God does care. He wants those little sacrifices of Time. Those little devotions, that seem so insignificant. Those moments where all you do is cry to Him. Those times where being alone makes God seem bigger in your life. Those times where all you see is His creation and in your mind you just Praise Him and Thank Him for the beauty He's given you. Everytime you praise God and thank Him, it's like taking a step closer in His arms. A deeper realtionship. He wants that realationship to grow and develope. If you take the first step He'll take you all the way. He'll show you the deeper side of a spiritual relationship. Well, at leaste those are my thoughts. Things that have been settling in my mind. Nay thoughts on it?

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know His love,
His heart,Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.
Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay
From His own fullness all He takes away.

Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord.
When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past
All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.