Typing out verses is tedious and sometimes annoying, but the benefit is amazing. i have time to take each word as i type it, to come up with a conclusion as to what it means. which helps me to understand the whole thing as a whole.
so here goes.

Philippians 1:3-11
I thank my God every time i remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with Joy because of your partnership in the Gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since i have you in my heart; for whether i am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you share in God's grace with me. God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus. And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in Knowledge and Depth of Insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of Righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ-to the glory and praise of God.

i read that, and was amazed at one part in peticular. "Phillipians 1:9 ...And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight. ..."

fascinating way to pray for someone. He didn't just pray that they would love people. anyone can love someone. but he prayed that there love would be filled with Knowledge and depth of insight. and why did he pray for that? So that they would be able to discern what was best and that they would be pure and blameless until Christ's second coming.I can only assume that's what the "Day of Christ" is. His return.
But what would it look like? Physically? to have Love that abounded in Knowledge and Depth of insight! I want to ask God to give me that, I want you to ask God to give you that. what an amazing Gift that would be!

another area that stuck out to me in those verses, was how Paul said "I thank God every time I remember you." That kind of sounded weird to me, that he would thank God for remebering someone. what does that mean? why would he say that? The only thing that came to my mind was that God probably put the "remebering" in Pauls mind. that would be the only reason (that I can see) that Paul would thank God.

well. thanks for listening again. have a good day. and keep God in the center of your Prayers.

Holy Cow! this article i found freaked me out! you should read it and tell me what you think!

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/servlet/story/RTGAM.20050929.wstiffs.jpg/BNStory/National/

enjoy. and also tell me if you would consider it yourself! :)

i Just finished book #6 in the Left Behind series! it was long. rough and exciting! Now i have to go back to the library and check out two more. hopefully i'll have the whole series read before my job starts up.

so about my Job. i was so convicted when i left the last day of training. Ready to just quit and breeze away. away from those freaky women lovers and femenist and new-agey creepy people. but they need Jesus to. I just realized how much of an impact i could have. i have to see all of them at leaste once a month at madetory meetings. truthfully i will dread them...but looking forward to God's power in my life is far more exciting!

I've had many moments to consider my predicament, and i realized that the whole experience put me in a spiritually depressed state. but that didn't last. God has again directed me. and uplifted my spirits! it was good. so, now, needless to say. i'm excited for the opportunities He's givven me. and i can't wait to start.

now about the Bible. i need to impress it on my mind.

Hebrews 12:3 Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

wow that's a sweet! verse! I pray your day goes well.

AAAW! ther's me as a baby! chewing on a baseball bat!
yah those were the days. being chubby isn't like what it used to be. now there are worldy preferences. i would have failed!!!!


Can you find me! can you find JOY!!!

IT'S ALMOST AS FUN AS A "WHER'S WALDO"!
hahah! better yet.

so much for that Biblical post. I just had to show you the proof that me and joy knew each other in second grade!

i want to study the Bible again with you, and share my insight...if i get any. But usually i just bombared people with questions...and most of the time my thoughts are weak. i'm sure all of the people who know me closest would remember me as someone who wasn't very thoughtful or didn't try to think as much as a normal person. but the truth is, i'm not sure how to think. I always have this deep fear, that if i give my opinion on Biblical matters that the person hearing me will be offended or try to talk me out of whatever i just said. i'm a social wreck. my life is centered on what others think of me. i know that's no way to live, and i know it will be really rough getting past that personality traite. but i also know that with God's help anything is possible. who knows. maybe He created me like this for a reason. i know, with the way i am, if i had been in Highschool, i probably would have turned out to be a fake Christian. one who went to church but defied everything God has set before us. i'm a follower and i want to be accepted. and it's painfull when i'm not, and that's when i begin to hate myself.

oh well. i don't know why i said all that. but i won't erase it. i hate it when people see me as strong and "perfect". I've had so many people call me "perfect" it's not even funny. and that was coming from another beleiver, which really upsets me...but i do appreciate evry un-beleiver who has pointed out God in me whenever i try to be hidden. not that i want to hide God, but i'm not social in any cercumstances. i'm like the leaste social person in this whole world. and you say "no way...your like best friends with everyone in your church..." well. let me just explaine that when you go to India for two years and you become like a daughter to all of those older guys on the team and you become even closer to all those younger people, and you leave random messages to masami, who without telling me, broadcasts that to the whole church, you'd better beleive i'd become well known. not that i like ebing known. it just sortof happens.

anyways. the bottom line is i hate being social. i get serious anxiety whenever i'm around people who i am not comfortable with. it's the most annoying feeling wanted with every part of you to be accepted, but you yourself not wanting to be noticed. oh well. that's life i guess...

i'll write a whole long post about God and what He's telling me in His word in like an hour...so keep looking. it will be inspired! i promise.

John Piper on Small Groups.

http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/Sermons/ByDate/2006/1810_Resting_and_Wrestling_for_the_Cause_of_ChristTogether/

try to read all of that. it's really good. even if you have to Save the link and come back later. and keep in ming Piper wrote it to his church that he preaches at. well, it was confusing to me...just wanted to warn you.

Ok. here goes. last night was a breath of fresh air for me. i had become stale through secular teaching, and then at the Youth group kickoff-to be surrounded by other beleivers, was like a lsap in the face, and early morning wakeup call. It was defienetly God who planned those days to collide together.

I will first start out by saying how un-trained my mind is when it comes to secular training. all the training i've received is Christian, except of course that forklift training or CPR or Scuba diving. but this was different. this was 100% Serious attacks on my beleifs! if you don't think Femenists don't attack your beleifs. you should sit with them for a few days and see how much they probably hate Christians. I could almost taste it. although they did talk about how "We should all respect each others opinions..." i still felt Like i'd be the center of attention.

so your probably confused now. let me explaine my job. I was hired to work for Girls.Inc. a corporation that helps build up girls and there "self-image" and Blah-Blah-Blah. not that that is bad...but the behind the scenes training is what freaked me out. all the 25 women who were there were either Liberal, Feminist, New age or all of those! except one. this Girl who i'll be working for... They kept saying things like "I found my iner-child" and "The energy in this room is Amazing!" they are pr-abortion, luckily we didn't discuss that in this training...and they excercise "safe-sex"! Grrrr....I hope they don't expect me to teach any of that. if they do, they'll have to fire me first. of course the ciriculum says nothing about abortion and safe sex as aposed to absinence, but what's to stop them if i refuse to "Mentor" a girl in that direction. well, needless to say, after those two days of training, i felt dirty, like i needed a shower. and being able to show up at someones house with alot of christians, made me feel so much better! more to say on this job later...after i have a serious meeting with Masami.