ok. today is a day of venting. I thought i got over this, but my mind keeps screaming at me and replaying the situation over and over in my mind. talking about this and displaying it for all the world to see, seems to help. i'll at leaste leave out there names. well, today i had to have a serious confrontaion with two kids. one of the kids who was supposed to be helping me keep the kids under control at the 5 day clubs, and the other, was being a disgusting distraction. ok. JG, wasn't prepared at all for his missionary story (again!) and passed it onto TB. that was the first thing that made me mad. He had a whole week of intensive training on this missionary story. and he told me he slept through most of it, thus his dis-interest in being a Light for God. Then for the other two clubs he and his friend...L? were huge distractions. first while TB was telling the missionary story (aka JG's job) Jg and L? were making the kids laugh. I told JG that he was making me mad and that he'd better stop distracting the kids. so, he eased up on it. then at Brents club, while i was trying to tell my Bible story, JG and L? were sitting amongst the kids and Talking! Loudly! and distracting, not only the kids but me. to the point where i kept on forgetting my place. It was very infuriating. i told them at leaste four times to stop talking, but it continued. so after that, i gave the song leading over to TB and had JG and L? walk with me a ways from the kids. first, as they walked towards me with smugg looks on there faces, i asked if i looked happy?! That wiped that off, then i told JG how totally dissapointed i was with him. he tried to pass the blame on L? who was willing to take it, but i wasn't willing to take that. it was both of them! i made that clear.I was so mad my whole body was shaking and i could feal my neck twitch, i do that all the time while i'm in a blood-thristy rage! i was telling JG and L? to go home right then, but he refused because his dad was there. and i know i should have gotten his dad, but i have this horrible weakness. i don't want people to be mad at me. I go out of the way, to make sure people don't hate me. but in this surcomstance, i think i would have rather had him hate me than not. but it was to late, my fear overcame me. I'm glad i at leaste showed him my anger. i think they were both quite surprised. they guarded there talking after that little discussion.