well...today was a good day. i concocted an art idea...with the help of my "ex-teachers" art lesson. and now i have a really awesome work of art. and if i knew how, i would scan it onto my computer and show everyone...but alas, my computer is dumb and is not capable.

i also, while doing my art, was listening to some awesome music on K-Love. as my dog layed at my feet and my guinea pig and mice were comfortably sleeping in there cages.

God has truely blessed me with some talents and "stuff"

i just yesterday got another magazine from VOM (Voice of the Martyrs) it tell of i think, 59 christian vietnamese, who are in prison. you might want to keep them in your prayers.

i will leave once again...to do who know's what. see those of you (you know who you are...and no...not you kin...) at church. can't wait to hear what masami has to say.

today is the 26th. not much going on...as usuall...

my mom is vacuuming our floor right now. my dog is barking at it. my dad just got home from a store, now my dog is barking at him. crystal is sitting on a recliner, staring off into space...and i'm sitting here. trying to think of something of relevance to share with the world. like...my plans. don't have any. it'd be pretty awesome if the Lord led me to a life of service in a foreign country...but that's probably years away, if He wants me to go at all. in the present i have youth ministries and my art. How can God use me in this present moment.

now looking back on my college experience...and my "witnessing"...i'm not much of a speaker, and i tried to let the Lord take controll of me as i spoke to people. i actually got in a few good conversations with some people. Jessie (i don't know his last name) and Golda Kammermon. Jessie was in my welding sculpture class...and by the grace of God he was friends with my old friends abe and golda. it was thru them that i was able to become friends with this guy. i tried many times to get into some deep conversations with him about God...but i'm a disgusting failer. i did, however, witness to him through my life. that was an encouragement. at one point, he told me that i seemed, to him, to have this Holly, untoucheable...air about me...

well...my mom is kicking me off. i must go.

Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.
Psalm 27:14 NLT

Patient endurance is what you need now, so you will continue to do God's will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.
Hebrews 10:36 NLT

july is slowly ebbing towards me...which means soon i'll be able to get a job and move out with joy...sorry joy for making you wait...

ok, so i was thinking (more like "day dreaming" :) about camp and what i will be expecting. jr.high girls at eagle fern...

good food, nice cabins, awesome councilors, crazy girls who are obsessed with makeup and guys. last year we had a Pajama Party and watched "ice princess" UGH!!!! i was about to gag!!! all the girls clapped when (i'm taking in a deep breath here!!!) THEY KISSED!!!! come on!!! how corny can you get. even the other counselors were getting into it! urgg...that's something i'll have to Suck Up! anyways. theres a nice creek and TIRE SWIIIING!!!! and volleyball. and usually really awesome worship!!! the speaker....

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she's old. but the girls love her. wich doesn't make any sense. i fall asleep when this lady talks. she talks like my grandma...whom i love....but old women have this way of talking that is like monotone...boring...and ...that's how she is. But the best and most funny thing is that all the girls love her.

that's eagle fern.

then there is Camp Tadmor.

i've never beeen...but it sounds exciting. kat and mo won't be there. that's just a tad bit sad...but it will give me a chance to see how H...G will stand up without them...(if you know what i mean...and i'm thinking only a few people will)

then HIGH school!!! that's should be exciting. kat and mo will be going to this camp. i'm wondering how they'll bond with the other girls. i'm thinking allicia will ignore...addie will try....and all the rest will think they're nuts. it's true...and then the leaders. becky and lisa will be awesome. they're awesome leaders...but the guys....

now i can take scotts sarcasm, but it will be an opporotunity for kat to lash out...at least that's how i see it. mo, will be fine with all the leaders...it's kat who i'm worried about. that will defineteally be on my prayer list for the next 5 years...or i can wait and see how they ajust.

we'll see. i also wonder how kat will do with the outreach part of it. last year we went to an indian reservation and cleaned up trashe and smelly dirty stuff...in very hot weather...for many hours. now, kat has proven me wrong before...(i think...) so maybe she will come through, but she's definetely a girly girl...as is mo...so, i suppose we'll just have to watch and see how the Lord handles this situation. i'm throwing them into His hands...which is where they've been from the beginning, but this time, i hopefully will have no strings attached!!! :)

now that i've bored my audience with my camp experiences and life aftarwards...

i shall go draw a picture...and read my Bible.

p.s. those two verses i found are so true...PATIENCE....i should pray for that again and see what happens...

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Da Vinci Doubts: Historians Crack the Code
By Paul StrandCWNewsFrom Sony Studios, Hollywood
CWNews.com -

With the release of the movie The Da Vinci Code, millions of people may suddenly be wondering if everything the church has told them is based on a lie, or not.
But some of Christianity's leading scholars are offering answers that confirm that the Christian faith is built on solid facts.
"Seek the Truth" is the movie's motto. The book starts out saying “FACT: all descriptions of artwork, architecture, documents and secret rituals in this novel are accurate.”
Based on supposed ‘facts’ the story goes on to make the most outrageous claims about Christianity.
Lee Strobel co-authored the book Exploring ‘The Da Vinci Code’. Strobel said the book, "goes right to the core of Christianity: was Jesus Christ the Son of God or not?"
The clever presentation of twisted facts makes many people doubt the Christian faith. Strobel saw this up-close and quite painfully after he'd been wooing a famous Muslim American towards accepting Christ.
Strobel said the man read The Da Vinci Code and told him, “‘This has confirmed all my worst suspicions about Christianity.' And all of a sudden he wasn't interested anymore in investigating the claims of Christianity."
Dan Brown’s boldest charge is that for two millennia the church has conspired to hide that for the first three centuries of Christianity, Jesus's followers just considered him a mortal prophet. And, it wasn't [changed] until the emperor Constantine called together the Council of Nicaea in 325 AD with the express purpose of ‘suddenly declaring Jesus divine.’
But Gregory Koukl of the Christian intellectual organization 'Stand to Reason' says all the evidence shows Christians considered Jesus the divine Son of God right from the start.
Koukl told me, "The early Christians, from Ignatius at the beginning of the 2nd Century on, all defended the divinity of Christ. Now, if this idea was introduced at the Council of Nicea [in 325], how is it that early Christians in their extant writings that we possess now – you can Google them up and find them on the Internet – how is it that – to a person – they all defended the divinity of Christ.”
Author Dan Brown also claims Constantine hand-picked the books of the Bible, keeping only the Gospels that presented Jesus as divine and tossing out some 80 other ‘gospels’ about Jesus.
But that's far from the truth. William Edgar is a professor of Apologetics at Westminster Theological Seminary.
Professor Edgar said, "The rival ‘gospels’ had long been dismissed as having no light to shine whatsoever on the New Testament events. They were ‘rival gospels’ because they had a very different theology, so the church never really recognized them."
The book and movie claim Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene and their descendants formed one line of the kings of France.
New Testament Studies Professor Darrell Bock has written Breaking The Da Vinci Code. He says Brown depends on two murky passages from two rejected ‘gospels’ to come up with Jesus's marriage.
Professor Bock quoted one, "'Jesus loved Mary more than He loved the 12.’” Bock went on, “And out of that, the inference comes that He was married to Mary Magdalene. One of them has a reference to her being His ‘companion,’ but that term can mean everything from a spouse to a spiritual sister."
Josh McDowell is one of Christendom's leading apologists and author of The Da Vinci Code: A Quest for Answers. McDowell said, "There is not a wisp of evidence anywhere that Jesus Christ was married, but there's an abundance of evidence that He was not."
In Da Vinci Code, Brown states that Jesus intended to make Mary the leader of His new religion, but a ‘sexist church’ hid that truth and then slaughtered anyone who tried to uncover it.
Brown and the film claim a secret group, created in 1099 called the Priory of Sion, protected Jesus' descendants from a wrathful Catholic Church. And secret members of the Priory, like Leonardo da Vinci hid clues in their art to lead people to the supposed truth about Jesus, Mary and their descendants.
Lee Strobel went to France with a film crew to investigate Brown's claims -- including those about the Priory of Sion.
Strobel showed me some documents, saying, "I have in my hand the actual filing with the French government to create this organization, the Priory of Sion, and it is dated May the 7th, 1956 – not 1099. It's signed by a guy named Pierre Plantard as the secretary-general of this organization. But Pierre Plantard was a convicted con man, who did time for counterfeiting and fraud."
“So —“ I asked Strobel, “Jesus ‘wasn't divine,’ He was ‘married, He had children,’ and the church has been ‘lying and killing people to cover this up’ for the last two-thousand years? Well, what else did The da Vinci Code get wrong?"
Strobel added that one thing was "To call the book The Da Vinci Code. Nobody would call Leonardo 'da Vinci.' You don't call him 'da Vinci' – that means 'from the town of Vinci.' His name is Leonardo. Art historians always refer to him as 'Leonardo,' not 'da Vinci.'"
Brown says the Council of Nicaea vote ‘to make Christ divine’ was a ‘perilously close vote.’
But Koukl says the vote was not to ‘suddenly make Christ divine,’ but to affirm the belief in His divinity - which was already centuries old.
And the vote was not close at all. Koukl said, "The fact is, we know what the vote was. It was 316-2."
Brown claims Mary Magdalene's bones are buried beneath the Louvre pyramid.
Strobel said, "Brown adds this bit of conspiracy by saying: if you count up the number of panes of glass on this pyramid, there are 666. Like, 'Ooh, Satan's number, this is a big conspiracy.' Well, if you go over there and you investigate it, what you find out is there are 673 panes of glass."
But Brown and the movie sound so confident in their claims, it can deceive those who aren't educated in the facts.
Professor Edgar added, "We have a gullible culture and a gullible church. One of the reasons is: that we are simply biblically illiterate."
As for seeing the movie, Strobel said, "Why would you want to reward Hollywood for producing anti-Christian propaganda?" So, he thinks only a few believers should lay their money down to see The Da Vinci Code.
Strobel added, "I think, frankly, the only Christians who should go see this movie are Christians who have: number one, done their homework so they cannot be susceptible to the lies of the movie; and number two, their motivation is to reach out evangelistically to neighbors and family members who are going to go to the movie anyway."
Strobel and others say if you're armed with the truth—the real truth—then you should engage in the fight this film and book have begun.
More than a dozen major Christian authors have prepared books, study guides, videos and websites expressly to arm Christians against the claims of The Da Vinci Code.
Josh McDowell said, "We’d better be ready to give an answer to those who ask for the hope that you have in you. When they ask: 'Why do you believe the Bible is true? Why do you believe Christ was the Son of God? Why do you believe Christ wasn't married?' We’d better be ready."
Darrell Bock agreed and explained, "'Because it's going to be very easy to talk about Jesus, as a result of this book and this movie. It's good to be familiar with that which you're criticizing."
Strobel said, "We have history on our side. There's nothing for us to be afraid of with The Da Vinci Code. So let's seize this opportunity, take advantage of the people's spiritual curiosity, and help bring them the real Gospel about Jesus."
Some say that Sony Pictures The Da Vinci Code is Satan's answer to 'The Passion of the Christ.' But others see this as a divine opportunity to talk about Jesus and set the record straight.

"He led them forth by the right way."
- Psa_107:7

Changeful experience often leads the anxious believer to enquire "Why is it thus with me?" I looked for light, but lo, darkness came; for peace, but behold trouble. I said in my heart, my mountain standeth firm, I shall never be moved. Lord, thou dost hide thy face, and I am troubled. It was but yesterday that I could read my title clear; to-day my evidences are bedimmed, and my hopes are clouded. Yesterday I could climb to Pisgah’s top, and view the landscape o’er, and rejoice with confidence in my future inheritance; to-day, my spirit has no hopes, but many fears; no joys, but much distress. Is this part of God’s plan with me? Can this be the way in which God would bring me to heaven? Yes, it is even so. The eclipse of your faith, the darkness of your mind, the fainting of your hope, all these things are but parts of God’s method of making you ripe for the great inheritance upon which you shall soon enter. These trials are for the testing and strengthening of your faith-they are waves that wash you further upon the rock-they are winds which waft your ship the more swiftly towards the desired haven. According to David’s words, so it might be said of you, "so he bringeth them to their desired haven." By honour and dishonour, by evil report and by good report, by plenty and by poverty, by joy and by distress, by persecution and by peace, by all these things is the life of your souls maintained, and by each of these are you helped on your way. Oh, think not, believer, that your sorrows are out of God’s plan; they are necessary parts of it. "We must, through much tribulation, enter the kingdom." Learn, then, even to "count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations."

"O let my trembling soul be still,
And wait thy wise, thy holy will!
I cannot, Lord, thy purpose see,
Yet all is well since ruled by thee."